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**I had planned on posting some of our Christmas decor today but something else is on my mind.**
I guess with Christmas coming up and everything that surrounds this season, it has me thinking of all of you still waiting on your baby. I always dreamed about Christmas with my own kids and what that would be like. I know how lonely the holidays can feel even when you are surrounded by family. You just want a child of your own.
I don't really have the right words to say to you, but I just wanted you to know I am thinking about you and praying for you. I am still praying for all of you who asked me to several months ago.
Before having kids, I tried to picture what my life would be like with them. I don't think I pictured that it would be this crazy. :) Even though my house is an absolute wreck 99% of the time and I am stepping on something sticky most of the time, I wouldn't have it any other way. I think when you wait a long time for a baby it makes you appreciate every single phase. It is harder to take it for granted. Every time I feel like I am about to lose my mind, I think about how many hours I spent praying for these exact moments.
I longed for moments when my counters would look like this. Christmas trees, stars and of course airplane cookies. All green because that is Westin's favorite color. Plus a salt dough hand print and Ramone from the movie Cars peeking out from behind the bowl.
Moments when my dishwasher would be filled with baby paraphernalia. Don't let the bottles fool you, Reagan still won't take one. Westin decided he needed to drink out of them yesterday.
I prayed for moments when I would see little bitty shoes beside our big shoes.
And moments when our dining room table would be covered in baby clothes, socks and diaper bags.
Even though I wanted our living room to be covered in toys, I never dreamed it could be this covered. Complete with a rubber snake. I prayed to able to see my living room look like this.
When all those moments seem overwhelming, I am always reminded that I prayed for those moments. I longed for those moments! And honestly, I love those moments and feel very blessed by them. To me, those moments mean we have two babies who live here. Two babies who we prayed for, for years. Those moments always remind me that there are people who are praying for those moments too. I hope I never stop seeing things that way. I want the busyness and messiness of my life to always remind me to pray for those who want that busyness and messiness in their life. For some reason when I am putting up their laundry I am always reminded to pray for you who are still waiting on your baby. Before I had kids I would try to picture our house filled with baby clothes. I think that is why the Lord uses that time to remind me to keep praying for others and to thank Him for our own blessings.
Please feel free to email me (firstname.lastname@example.org) if you would like me to be praying for you. I would be honored.