Sunday, December 2, 2012

Worth the Wait

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**I had planned on posting some of our Christmas decor today but something else is on my mind.**
 
I guess with Christmas coming up and everything that surrounds this season, it has me thinking of all of you still waiting on your baby.  I always dreamed about Christmas with my own kids and what that would be like.  I know how lonely the holidays can feel even when you are surrounded by family.  You just want a child of your own.
 
I don't really have the right words to say to you, but I just wanted you to know I am thinking about you and praying for you.  I am still praying for all of you who asked me to several months ago.
 
Before having kids, I tried to picture what my life would be like with them.  I don't think I pictured that it would be this crazy.  :)  Even though my house is an absolute wreck 99% of the time and I am stepping on something sticky most of the time, I wouldn't have it any other way.  I think when you wait a long time for a baby it makes you appreciate every single phase.  It is harder to take it for granted.  Every time I feel like I am about to lose my mind, I think about how many hours I spent praying for these exact moments.
 
I longed for moments when my counters would look like this.  Christmas trees, stars and of course airplane cookies.  All green because that is Westin's favorite color.  Plus a salt dough hand print and Ramone from the movie Cars peeking out from behind the bowl.
 

Moments when my dishwasher would be filled with baby paraphernalia.  Don't let the bottles fool you, Reagan still won't take one.  Westin decided he needed to drink out of them yesterday.


I prayed for moments when I would see little bitty shoes beside our big shoes.


And moments when our dining room table would be covered in baby clothes, socks and diaper bags.


Even though I wanted our living room to be covered in toys, I never dreamed it could be this covered.  Complete with a rubber snake.  I prayed to able to see my living room look like this.


When all those moments seem overwhelming, I am always reminded that I prayed for those moments.  I longed for those moments!  And honestly, I love those moments and feel very blessed by them.  To me, those moments mean we have two babies who live here.  Two babies who we prayed for, for years.  Those moments always remind me that there are people who are praying for those moments too.  I hope I never stop seeing things that way.  I want the busyness and messiness of my life to always remind me to pray for those who want that busyness and messiness in their life.  For some reason when I am putting up their laundry I am always reminded to pray for you who are still waiting on your baby.  Before I had kids I would try to picture our house filled with baby clothes.  I think that is why the Lord uses that time to remind me to keep praying for others and to thank Him for our own blessings.   


Please feel free to email me (row35401@yahoo.com) if you would like me to be praying for you.  I would be honored.

25 comments:

linda said...

oh my goodness--that last picture is too much!! so adorable!! where on earth did you find such cute pj's?

and i am so thrilled that you were finally blessed with your miracles!!
:) linda

Lena Medina said...

Thank you Shannon, about two years ago you wrote about your journey and I wrote a comment for prayer then. You were so sweet to leave a comment with the verses that you prayed when you were going through it. I started to use them in my prayer time on a daily basis, and they were especially helpful when I was going through a few difficult/painful procedures...God used you and I thank him for that. This Christmas, I still do not have a child to hold in my arms, but I have one growing inside me, a boy, due next month...I am blessed beyond belief how good the Lord is to those who wait. Thank you! And Merry Christmas!
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Cara Couch said...

Shannon, I'm so touched by this post. I've just gone through the IVF process myself. After almost three years of trying, I am pregnant but my first beta was low at only 48. I have to go back to my doctor tomorrow to see what's going on. I have been so bogged down with worry all weekend but I've tried to hand it over to The Lord. If you have a chance please ask The Lord to touch me and to help me to bring him glory no matter what the outcome. By the way, your babies are adorable!

Kimberley said...

beautiful post. love the last picture, so so sweet!

Sandy said...

Thank you for such a wonderful post! After 3 failed IUI attempts, my husband and I are beginning to look into IVF as our next option. This journey is so frustrating, but I truly believe that it is in His timing. May God richly bless you and your sweet family.

The Williams Family said...

Thank you for this beautiful post. My baby is in the middle of his third tummy bug in the past month, an ear infection, and head cold and it's been a long weekend. But you're right, children are such an amazing gift and no matter how hard it seems at times, it is the greatest blessing of all. Thank you for remembering all the moms (and dads) who are still waiting for their blessings.

Darcy said...

Hi Shannon - I am de-lurking :) I have been reading your blog ever since you posted the first time about your struggles with infertility. I read your blog because it gives me a sense of hope and because your kids are so darn cute! Your post comes at an interesting time as I am in a terrible funk and seem to find myself emotionless about this holiday season. We had 5 failed IUIs with Femara and just recently did an injectable cycle in which I overreacted and had to convert to IVF. No eggs fertilized. I am not on a month wait and will start the full IVF process next month. I am not sure what to expect but I am familiar with all the needles already. I am hoping this is our turn :) I appreciate your posts because very few people understand this struggle.

Christi said...

Thank you for such a sweet post. I love reading your blog.

Shannon said...

Hi Linda! Those PJs came from Crazy 8. The Santa ones are online but the elf is not. Hopefully you have a store by you!

Twice as Nice said...

My heart goes out for all the women waiting. I waited over 8 years! I doesn't get easier, but you can't give up. God is good. Perhaps, our plan isn't always HIS plan. It is all in HIS timing. I wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remember. I thought I would have a whole house full (hubby wanted a baseball team!). God's plan was one and our son has been such a blessing. Maybe we will have that baseball team when Logan gets married. He as told me he wants 4 kids!

Proverbs30one said...

I just want to add a word of encouragement. I waited through nearly 15 years of unexplained infertility until I had my daughter almost 3 years ago. She is the same age as Westin and I haven't been able to have another yet but so long to, especially when I see your two together. If the Lord wills, it will happen ladies, in His time alone. Praying for you all also.

Kelly said...

This is beautiful Shannon! How often we get bogged down with parental duties and need a gentle reminder that we prayed for this! Thank you for sharing xoxo

Sallie said...

Sweet comments, Shannon. I am longing for grandbabies now, but your post was a great reminder to savor the moments! And the Lord will provide in His time!

Mel Tales said...

Shannon, this is a beautiful post!!!!

Carrie said...

You really have such a sweet heart! We tried for almost 3 years, did all kinds of fertility treatments including IVF which failed, only for me to have a surprise, miracle pregnancy! I totally lost my faith during our struggle, but God stood right by me. You just have to give it all to Him...easier said than done at times. I thought my plan was the perfect, best plan, but it was not. Now I have my perfect 10 month old baby boy and I just could not be happier! Thank you so much for your encouraging words!

Kelli said...

Shannon you kids a so cute. Yes there are days where you are not sure it you will make it through but those day are as you said the days you really prayed for...the good and the bad days.
Enjoy your sweet babies today!

The Crowder Family said...

I just love this post! It is so wonderfully sweet and thoughtful. I know I've told you this before, but I remember years ago when I started reading your blog, I wondered why you didn't have any children yet because you seemed like such a mother. I began praying for you, not knowing that you and Cody were praying and trying everything to have little ones. I am so happy that y'all now have two precious children! I too am praying for all of those who are still waiting. It truly is all in His time.

Christy said...

Love the PJ's and Crazy 8! Those two cutie pie's are growing so fast.

Amanda said...

Beautifully said! After a 3 year battle with infertility (lots of Clomid cycles, 1 iui, 1 ivf with fresh transfer, 3 frozen transfers, a 2nd ivf with fet two months later) we were blessed with twins! I had my daughter and son last July. It's very easy to get caught up in daily life, but like you, I have yet to forget where I came from and what I went through to get my babies. The holidays can make fresh wounds sting even more, so love and prayers to everyone still trying for their miracle.

Shannon said...

Cara, I've been praying!

Shannon said...

I'll be praying for your next steps, Sandy. You're right, it is frustrating but there is nothing better than His timing.

The Photo Goo said...

Shannon- that was such a great post. It brought tears to my eyes :)

The Sirianni Family said...

I must reiterate what many have already said this was a wonderful post. I suffered with infertility before getting pregnant with my 1st son. Unfortunately the Lord decided to call both of my boys home to be with Him. We are now going through IVF and my transfer is on Thursday. I am so hopeful for another little babe in our arms soon and to be pregnant for Christmas!

k.harrison said...

So beautiful!

Happiness Is... said...

Such a sweet sweet post. We are doing a post on infertility on Monday at NOMB - www.neworleansmomsblog.com - would love you to come read it. This is such a thoughtful and well-written post on how the Lord uses our valleys to create good in the world.