After many prayers and talks with my doctor, we decided it was time to try In Vitro Fertilization. My official diagnosis was "un-explained infertility." That diagnosis brought mixed feelings. On one hand I was relieved that it wasn't something untreatable but on the other hand I was frustrated because I wanted a reason. To this day we still don't have a reason but that is okay. I could never have imagined we would be two and half years in our journey or that IVF would even be a possibility! I did not know much about IVF except that it was expensive. After talking to my doctor and finding out she had had two successful pregnancies from IVF and that it didn't seem as far fetched as I once thought, I was excited! My Dr.'s clinic is a satellite clinic of Little Rock Fertility Clinic so that was an extra blessing and made it very convenient too. I only had to come to the LR clinic twice.
Cody and I in Florida
Side note-At this point in our journey I decided to keep a journal. I wish I had done it at the beginning but like I said, I never thought it would be a "journey." I would encourage you to start writing down your feelings, concerns, comments, and even all the information you are given at each appointment. I was given a LOT of information at every IVF appointment and I was relaying all that information to all my prayer warriors too so it helped to keep it all straight. :)
So now we are to June 3, 2009. We were in Florida but it was time for me to give myself that first shot that would start my IVF process. That was the first of 20 Lupron shots I would give myself. I am so thankful that none of the shots ever really hurt. It really was not as bad as I was expecting. I watched a lot of You-Tube videos of people giving themselves these same shots and got some good tips.
June 11, 2009-Bad news. In my ultrasound they found a large cyst. The Dr. (not my regular doctor) said we would probably be stopping IVF and starting again in a couple of months. I was devastated. (You have to take birth control the month before you start any of your shots and apparently the birth control gave me a cyst.) I called Cody on the way and I'm not sure he could understand me through my tears but I just didn't want anymore delays.
However, that evening the LR clinic called and said I could have that cyst aspirated the next day if I didn't want to stop my IVF cycle. I drove to LR that night. I had my cyst aspirated and all I can say is that if I ever have to do that again then I will be put under. To this day that was the worst pain of my life. Way worse than recovering from a C-section.
June 15, 2009- This was the day I started my "stimulation" shots. So now I am giving myself two shots a day for the next 8 days. This drug will make me produce a lot of eggs.
Thursday, June 25, 2009- Retrieval Day! This was the day I would come to LR, be put under and have all my eggs taken out. They were able to get 16 eggs.
On our way to the clinic.
Friday, June 26, 2009-The nurse called and 8 out of the 16 eggs fertilized. She said they hope that half will fertilize so we were looking good.
Saturday, June 27, 2009- We were at the lake with my mom, Jason, Katie and Zach when the Dr. called with my embryo update. (They call every day to update you on how your babies are growing.) Ideally they want the embryos to grow for 5 days before they put them back in. Sometimes they only let them grown for 3 days though if they think they could take a turn for the worse. My mom, Katie and I came back to LR just in case we had to go to the clinic the next day.
Sunday, June 28, 2009- The Dr. said he wants to do a 3 day transfer so we went in that day at 10am. Dr. B put two of our embryos back in while we watched on the ultrasound screen. My mom and Katie were able to be in the room. Talk about an emotional moment watching two of your babies being put into your womb. When he was finished, he said, "in God we trust." Couldn't have said it better myself. They were able to freeze 3 embryos for future use.
Fun side note-Technically those 3 embryos are Westin's fraternal twins since they all were conceived the same day during the same cycle. I think that is neat.
After the procedure I was on bed rest for 48 hours.
Now the waiting begins. My blood pregnancy test was scheduled for July 9th. The day after my birthday. I'm sure you can guess what my wish was when I blew out my candles! :)
Thursday, July 9, 2009- I was up very early because I couldn't sleep. It is amazing all the emotions you can feel and even convince yourself. I had completely convinced myself I wasn't pregnant so if it was negative I wouldn't have been surprised. I took my blood test at 11:30 (Elizabeth went with me!) and I was told I would have my results by 1:30. I spent all day with Katie and Zach and every time my phone rang our hearts stopped beating for a second. Would you believe they did not call with the results until 4:30!!! Talk about the longest day of my life.
From my journal: Praise the LORD! I'm pregnant! I was completely shocked and Katie and I started crying and screaming. It was so surreal. After getting a negative every month for almost three years, it is hard to actually believe you could get a positive!! She called all the prayer warriors she had praying for me and I called my prayer warriors.
The dish Westin grew in for 3 days.
Cody was out of town for work but when I called and told him he said he knew all along. ;) My mom couldn't talk because she was crying and my dad was getting his oil changed and was crying in the waiting room. I had dreamed about what it would be like to make those phone calls and it was so fun! Everybody I called just started crying and would get me crying all over again. HERE is the post where I announced it on my blog.
Family celebration party
So that is our story. I know it was not nearly as hard or as long as some of your journeys. Some of you have shared your success stories with me and some are still waiting. When you are waiting for a baby, either a few months or 10+ years, the wait is agonizing. I will always pray for those who are still waiting. If you ever need to talk, please email me! I would love to become your prayer warrior.
Thank you for letting me share our story.
Flowers sent from Christina and Trey.