We knew we had three frozen embryos we wanted to use when we were ready to have another baby. Of course we weren't sure if any of those would take so we wanted to try as soon as possible. Also, we knew we wanted to go about it a little different this time. Last time, soooo many people walked our journey with us every step of the way (which was great!), but this time we thought it would be fun to have it a complete surprise. So only 4 close friends knew we were about to do a frozen transfer. This was so weird (and so hard to keep from my mom!) but I knew it would be worth it.
So on June 26, 2011, I started my estrogen patches. I changed these every four days, increasing the amount along the way.
On July 14th I had my first ultrasound to make sure I didn't have any cysts or follicles. I got a positive report so the next day I was able to start some antibiotics and the first of many progesterone shots. These shots go in your hip so Cody gives them to me every morning before he goes to work. I can finally stop these shots on Monday. I have no feeling left in either hip. Haha
July 20, 2011 was transfer day!
Cody took off work to stay with Westin and I drove down to Conway the night before to stay with Christina. (This was on a Wednesday and I was leaving Friday for IKEA so we didn't want Westin to stay with a babysitter for two full days.) She was able to come with me on Wednesday to the transfer. I was so thankful! It was such a fun day and we laughed so much. As usual.
They freeze and thaw the embryos in pairs. We got the good news that morning that both embryos had made the thaw and had started to grow right where they left off. The same Dr. who gave us Westin (ha!) put these embryos back in. I love that when he is finished he says, "In God we trust."
We only had to wait 9 days for our pregnancy test. I just had a good feeling about it so that morning I woke up and took a test. With Westin I did not take a home test and waited until 4:50 pm for the nurse to call me and tell me I was pregnant. That was a loooong day! I didn't want to go through with that again so I took one at home and saw "pregnant." Even though I was about 95% sure it would be positive, I was still shocked and still cried. Once you have dealt with infertility, I guess it will always be a shock to actually be pregnant. You just don't get used to it. I still went to the Dr. to take the blood test and it also came back positive.
The little vial was what the embryos were frozen in for two years. You can see the date on there that says, June 30, 2009. The dish is what they thawed them in before the transfer. It is so crazy to me to think that Westin's fraternal twin was frozen for 2 years! :)
I've had three ultrasounds so far. My first one was two weeks after my pregnancy test and it was actually kind of scary. I should have been 6 weeks along but the sack was empty. There was nothing in there. The words, "blighted ovum", "miscarriage", "don't panic yet" and other scary words were said at that appointment. My Dr. had me do some more lab work to make sure my numbers were still rising and called me that afternoon to say they were still rising just not as much as they should be. So she had me come in four days later for another ultrasound. As soon as she got it on the screen we both said, "I see a heartbeat!" Of course I started crying and she said she was just amazed. She said the sac was completely empty four days ago and she normally wouldn't even do an ultrasound this soon but since my numbers were still going up she wanted to double check before we started talking about a miscarriage. God is Good!! Turns out this one was a late implanter. :) I was measuring 6 weeks. So it was just too soon to see anything 4 days prior.
My third ultrasound was this past Monday. I was 11 weeks and it was my normal appointment to hear the heartbeat. We heard it right away and then she gave me an ultrasound just for fun. I love my doctor! She knows infertility patients like a lot of reassurance.
So that is my story! It was definitely a roller coaster ride and full of emotions. I can't imagine going through it without Jesus and I'm so thankful to Him that he never leaves us or forsakes us. It was only because of Him that I had a peace about everything those four days when I thought I was miscarrying. I am also thankful for those four friends (and one blog friend) who prayed us through and for everyone who is praying for us now.
A few more details....
We told my family the night before we left for Florida. We put Westin in his big brother shirt and had Andrew (my brother) film my parent's reaction. When we got to their house we just let them play with Westin and it was fun to watch how long it took for them to notice his shirt. :) It took about 5 minutes. They were SO surprised and excited. I didn't know if my mom would be mad or not for me not telling her but she did say it was nice to be spared all the worry that comes with all the waiting. :)
We told Cody's family a few weeks later when we saw them in person. We did it the same way but they never noticed. Haha After about 15 minutes, Cody finally told Westin to go show Nana his shirt. :) They were also SO excited and very surprised.
How am I feeling? I have been way more sick this time around. Like barely functioning sick. It has not been fun but at the same time I am thankful. With Westin I was only sick in the morning and then felt fine all day. This time I get sick all day and even in the middle of the night. I am taking Zofran but there is not much difference in when I don't take it. I'm too scared to take phenegrin because it just makes me so sleepy. I have a vision of me falling asleep on the couch and waking up to the house totally destroyed while Westin is jumping on the bed. Haha! I get to stop my estrogen patches and progesterone shots Monday so I am hoping that that helps. Thankfully I haven't been as tired this time around. I think it is because I don't have a choice. Ha!
Also, I am still praying for everyone who has asked me to. Some of you have emailed me with updates of positive pregnancy tests and some have emailed me with stories of miscarriage. I don't think we will ever understand why this happens, this side of heaven. It is so unfair and doesn't make sense. Please know I am still praying. I'll be praying until everyone on my two page list gets a baby!