I will say that the day every month, when I found out I wasn't pregnant, was hard. Very hard. There were lots of tears on those days and lots of "why me?!" However, it is truly amazing how the very next day, I was at peace and had hope again. I was already looking ahead to what our plan would be that month. I am so thankful to the Lord for not ever letting me get down or depressed about the process. He is so good to us and so faithful!
When we started trying to conceive, I never thought I would still be waiting to get pregnant when Zach was born (Katie and I started trying around the same time-although we didn't know it at the time. :)). Much less at his first birthday!
Also, I never thought I would see my best friend have two babies while I still waited.
I know that both Katie and Christina were nervous to tell me they were pregnant but I was truly SO happy for them! I cannot take credit for those feelings because without the Lord's help I know I could have easily been bitter and jealous. I always told them that I thought it was because I loved them so much that I couldn't have been anything but happy for them. I am thankful that the Lord did not let me dwell on the negative feelings in this process. I had my pity party on that one day of each month but that was it. I also had the encouragement of sooo many faithful friends and family members who helped me stay positive! You know who you are! I'm not sure I have ever had so many people praying for me. Westin's baby book is FILLED with encouraging cards, emails and Bible verses that helped me along the way.
I would encourage you to confide in someone if you are in this process. At first I didn't want to tell anyone, but it is such a lonely place to be. Husbands only understand your emotions so much. ;) Tell a friend so they can be praying for you and encouraging you along the way. They can also be there that one day when you just need to cry and vent. :) If you do not have anyone you feel like you can tell, please email me! I will be your prayer partner and friend in your journey.
Before I get to the part of our journey that worked for us, I wanted to share some Bible verses that were very encouraging to me. I wrote these out and kept them in our bathroom. I read them multiple times a day and believed the promises in them.
Ephesians 3:12 I may approach God with boldness, freedom and confidence.
Daniel 4:37 Praise and exalt and glorify the King of heaven, because everything He does is right and all his ways are just.
II Timothy 2:13 Even when we are too weak to have any faith left, He remains faithful to us and will help us, for he cannot disown us who are part of Himself, and He will always carry out His promises to us.
Luke 18:1 Then Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up.
Ephesians 3:14 &20 For this reason I kneel before the Father...Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.
There were many more verses that I read every day and will email them to you if you are interested.
After 2.5 years, we decided it was time for the next step.